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Why I Hate Being Fat – 217 Reasons ~ 217 Pounds


Abstinence is the most important thing in my life without exception!


To succeed you need to find something to hold on to, something to motivate you, something to inspire you. ~ Tony Dorsett


The Meaning of Abstinence & Weight Loss In CEA-HOW


“Most of us have lived long lives with that old self. Therefore, losing the weight and becoming someone different is frightening and very uncomfortable.” From the pamphlet, The Meaning of Abstinence & Weight Loss In CEA-HOW

This is very thing I faced everyday, up until I stopped losing weight. The plateau for me is now a rut. It could have certainly turned into a grave if I hadn't decided to do something about it. It is amazing what giving up certain addictive items can do for you. The clarity of mind, the openness of spirit and the removal of addictive substances from the physical body leaves one wanting more. I want more and more and more.

The opposite side of this desire is my compulsion to be perfect; to weigh and measure down to the decimal unit of an ounce. Each decimal unit of weight is the degree upon which honesty is measured. I find the more honest I am in regards to weighing and measuring, the more honest I am about other things in life. Therefore, it is true it is easier to lie and cheat than it is to be honest and real. It is no wonder my addiction to food in its form of a compulsion to eat gave me the ability to deceive myself from life and people.

To this day, I cannot comprehend the illusion of fear. Where does it come from? Is it inherited? Learned? What makes us afraid of certain things but not others? Why are some people in fear while other are brave and courageous?

I am learning to live with my fear. The person I am to become is nothing like the one from my past. The weight loss of almost another person proves to me that fear is only an illusion. My negative thinking, avoidance, indecisiveness contributes to the fear I am working through today. They are only a few of the many aspects I am working to eliminate from my long list of character defects. I thought I was perfect, only to find out that I am less than imperfect.

I am inspired today by the beauty and weight loss of the girl I love will all my heart. I wish to stand next to her in maintenance weight fulfilling our hearts' desire with dreams and love. It is something we both must work hard at. There is nothing more difficult than seeing yourself in the reflection of another human being and realize the gift God has bestowed upon you. It is one of the many reasons I could not attract someone into my life when I was fat. I hated myself, therefore how could I love, much less like someone else and be able to accept their gift in return?


I will (love) make art and have no fear!


Attitude of Gratitude – Thank You God for the beauty in my life!


Abstinence Watch – Goal Weight – 200 lbs; currently 272