Reason 57; Oh NO! What Are We Going To Do?

Why I Hate Being Fat – 217 Reasons ~ 217 Pounds


Abstinence Watch – Day 26 to One Year


Remember, people will judge you by your actions, not your intentions. You may have a heart of gold – but so does a hard-boiled egg. ~ Unknown

A friend of mine who I have been trying to help acquire his abstinence had a few days of freedom from the obsession under his belt. Then he lost it. None of us are immune to the disease of compulsive eating. The obsession / compulsion will hit when we are not paying attention as in Strange Mental Blank Spots. I actually have had voices call me from the refrigerator. I am in bed under the covers with a pillow over my face in my bedroom across at the other end of the house and I can hear them call me clear as day.

The other thing he talks about is that he “prayed” on it before he fell asleep. The thing I have say is what I heard a long time ago. One can pray and pray and pray to “whoever” and nothing will happen. For example, I remember reading an article about how these women used to pray and pray for their fat to be removed from their bodies. Nothing happened! Therefore, they said there is no God! I used to do the same thing – I'd ask God to make me thin. Nothing happened! It was as if I expected God to come down here do a procedure of liposuction, install a lap-band, do a tummy tuck, or just darn melt the fat off my body. No! It did not happen!

God does not work miracles! But, God will work miracles if we “work” for them. The voices will always be there. I just do not listen to them. I listen (meditation) to God, sitting still and quieting the voices in my head. It is not easy. I started by sitting for a minute, then two, then five, then ten minutes. Now, I participate in “Sitting Meditations” for forty-five minutes. It is an amazing feeling, like walking on thin air.

My friend goes on to say, he wakes up from a deep sleep and the voices are still there. He wakes up angry. For myself, I have choices. I have a choice every morning on whether this is going to be a good or bad day. It is up to me. It begins with my attitude. Is it going to beat me down or am I going to put up a fight? He continues to ask, where is his Higher Power in these moments? Why was He there before, but He did not feel Him then?

God is always there. I must make a conscious choice to make a conscious contact with my Higher Power. Food, the disease of compulsive eating (the devil) is always there too, beckoning you to fall into temptation. As I have stated before, I can pray until kingdom come; but I will still be in the disease if I choose not to do anything. Doing nothing is doing something! It all depends on the situation; is your self-will to govern your life or is it God?

Which comes to his final question, how is he to strengthen his hope and faith? The only thing I know is by being of service. Practical experience shows that nothing will so much insure immunity from drinking (compulsive eating) as intensive work with other alcoholics (compulsive eaters). It works when other activities fail. This is our twelfth suggestion: Carry this message to other alcoholics (compulsive eaters)! You can help when no one else can. You can secure their confidence when others fail. Remember they are very ill. Chapter 7, AA Big Book. Working With Others