Reason 56; NO DIET. NO EXERCISE. Read My SHOCKING Story!

Why I Hate Being Fat – 217 Reasons ~ 217 Pounds


Abstinence Watch – Day 23 to One Year


When I buy cookies I eat just four and throw the rest away. But first I spray them with Raid so I won't dig them out of the garbage later. Be careful, though, because that Raid really doesn't taste that bad. ~ Janette Barber

I cannot tell you how many countless times I searched for the easier, softer way. I would stare at the tabloids hoping a miracle answer could be found; that science had discovered a magic pill that would allow me to eat anything I wanted and not gain an ounce!

Often it is the act of wanting something so bad that causes us the most pain. Is it greed? Are we willing to pay the price for something that we truly desire? Talking about something and actually doing the deed are two different things. Lately, the girl I love with all my heart and I have been talking about food, not the items on our food plan – that is boring; but the good stuff. It is the stuff that is forbidden to cross that invisible line called lips.

I attend AA meetings where drunk-a-logues are often revered just as much at the recovery expressed by the speaker. I need to be reminded of the insanity and despair of alcohol; what it did to my body as it went down permeating the very soul of my being. Alcohol changed my demeanor sometimes causing me to go into a blackout. It made me invisible and invincible. Food in the form of sugar on the other hand causes my body to go into an instantaneous coma. I become lethargic and lazy. I don't want to do anything except eat myself to oblivion or death.

In our discussion about our favorite forbidden foods, the girl I love with all my heart and I love the same kind of junk food. We find that we have a great deal of things in common including that we both are very much service oriented people. So, it is not uncommon for us to discuss the things we did to ourselves. Now, we are going through a different kind of pain. Food is not the issue! Our spirituality is to meld our lives together. We both have had separate lives that presently is difficult to change. The only thing we can do is be patient with each other, more importantly with God. It is our impatience that we want things now! This is causing us pain. We need to constantly remind each other – In God's Time!