Reason 48; Spiritual Secrets Revealed

Why I Hate Being Fat – 217 Reasons ~ 217 Pounds


Abstinence Watch – Day 13 to One Year


We cannot be sure of having something to live for unless we are willing to die for it. ~ Che Guavara

I've had my “rat” food breakfast. I state jokingly, it is barely enough food to sustain a rat until my next meal. Nobody has ever died of hunger in between meals. I feel like I am going to pass out, that my life is passing before me if I don't get more. This is my problem: I want more!

I believe compulsive eaters are passionate people. I should only speak about myself; but in getting to know the girl I love with all my heart, I feel I have found my true love, my soul mate, my partner in crime. The crime we have is for each other is passion! We, the girl I love with all my heart, myself and her mom were talking about food. What else do compulsive eaters love to talk about? We stated that most compulsive eaters are great chefs, cooks and will spend hours making up a dish or a recipe. We love food.

But, often our passion exceeds our expectations. It can become dangerous, overwhelming to the point that we use food as love, comfort and as a drug to numb ourselves from the world. For those who have been to hell and back, spirituality is the foundation and the way NOT to go back to the gates of insanity or death. Our spirituality – the girl I love with all my heart and I have shamelessly shifted our spirituality to a new level. We pray at every meal, for each other and align our will to that of God's will for us.

Spirituality is gratitude in action! Having been to hell and back a few times, I have no need nor do I desire to go back. It is my gratitude in service to others that allows me to remain abstinent. I am constantly available to give service. It is the one thing that brought us, the girl I love with all my heart and I together. We have that in common and both of us have six service commitments. We support each other in our recovery endeavors. It is something I never had in a relationship.

The thing I look forward to in my relationship with the girl I love with all my heart is that I am inspired. The amount of her dedication, love and service and the fact she is on the maintenance food plan is something I aspire to; it keeps me going. The love we have for God, for each other is what keeps the flames in our passion burning furiously rampant.