Reason 44; Where There Is A Will, There's God!

Why I Hate Being Fat – 217 Reasons ~ 217 Pounds


Abstinence Watch – Day 6 to One Year


The first duty of love is to listen. ~ Anonymous

Exit! That is the first thing I want to do when I am faced with the truth or something that I don't want to deal with. Running away from my problems is just as easy as running away from my feelings. Eating is one way I used to cope with my feelings of fear. I thought I could hide them like dust underneath the carpet.

To face my fears, I must first be willing to look at them. I ask myself why am I wanting to run away? What will happen if I face them? Will God help me when I can't help myself? What is the worse thing that can happen?

If my best thinking got me to 417 pounds, then I must assume that any answer I come up with will be invalid. Fear usually runs my life, unless I consciously make the extreme effort for a conscious contact with my Higher Power will I succeed in accomplishing the task at hand. The trouble I run into is within my mind. If I listen to the voices in my head I am bound to fail at anything in life; but if I listen to that inner voice in my gut, the one deep within my spirit and soul then I am listening to the voice of God that is within all of us.

The other method I use to avoid life is denial. I don't want to hear it! It does not exist if I don't pay attention to it. The hard reality is hard to take when it is the unknown. But, that little voice deep inside me keeps me wanting to say it. I am going to say it . . . come September 2009, during that month the girl I love with all my heart will be moving in together! I don't know how it is going to happen, but where there is a will, there is God!