Reason 61; Service

Why I Hate Being Fat – 217 Reasons ~ 217 Pounds


Abstinence Watch – Day 30 to One Year


The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others. ~ Mohandas K. Gandhi

I found myself . . . the girl I love with all my heart found me. It makes my eyes tear up at the miracle of love. Did I think I would ever find such a treasure? No, I had given up, surrendered, tossed out all hope of finding someone to love and be loved by. I had made a resolve God wanted me to live the rest of my life alone, without the love I desperately wanted. I accepted my lot in life. If it was God's will, then I had no choice but to learn how to live the life of loneliness. But, it was not what God wanted.

God wants me to have everything my heart desires; but my selfish greed wants the possessions of everyone else. My envious nature questioned the relationship of a friend – how come he has a girlfriend and he's not even abstinent? Why does he get the love that I so desperately want? I didn't have an answer. It made me more resentful.

The fact is I wanted the pot of gold, but she was not right for me, God had other plans. Weeks flew by . . . until the girl I love with all my heart heard me share at a meeting. After the meeting, she decided to ask me if I would share at her meeting. Being newly abstinent, having made a decision I would practice what I learned in AA, I asked her where was her meeting and when did it start. She gave me her answer – Anaheim Hills; Saturday morning, eight o'clock!

I asked her if she was kidding. Now, when she tells the story how we met, she says I made this weird face because she didn't realize how far I lived. I live in the San Fernando Valley; almost fifty miles away. Driving the freeways in the metropolis of Los Angeles is something that many people don't do. I hesistantly accepted her request, knowing in the future I had to get up at 5:00 a.m. on a Saturday, on my day off to get to her meeting in time. She said she would call me to set a date for me to speak, after which she gave me a hug.

It was the hug, where I felt the connection. I didn't know it then; but looking at it in hindsight, it is where I felt God in our arms. Several months later, in the happiest time of my life, we share with each other the amount of service commitment each of us have – six! This is how we met, by being of service to others. Now, the girl I love with all my heart and I support each other in our service commitments by showing up to help each other. It is a life that in my wildest dreams would have never imagined. I thank God for God and the love He has given us!