Saturday Special: Reason 178, Why Should I Love Myself?

Why I Hate Being Fat – 217 Reasons ~ 217 Pounds

I feel I can eat the entire world like a termite starting at one end eating my way through until the earth is all gone. This feeling is that of no particular emotion. I just want to eat, eat, and eat. It might be my spirit or being is in denial. I really do not know. I think a great deal of it has to do with self-hatred. I do not like myself. I don’t like the way I look or feel. The sad truth is I am avoiding hurting myself. I do not want to do something that will jeopardize my well being when I do like myself.

This is a very perplexing issue for me. When I look at myself I really don’t care for the person I am looking at. I will not do anything to like myself. To tolerate me is the best I can do. I no longer look for someone to validate me. I also no longer feel alone in the world therefore no longer looking for someone to fix me or love me. I am on the verge of self-acceptance. The person I want to love doesn’t love me and that is me.