Reason 176, I Just Don’t Give A Damn!

Why I Hate Being Fat – 217 Reasons ~ 217 Pounds

My weight loss is screwing with my mind. When I’m fat and eating myself to death I have nothing to worry about, not a thing. I just don’t care! I don’t care about anyone or anything. The only thing that might get me to give a shit is if I run out of food, then off to the freaking store to get more crap. Food is not the only thing that screws with my mind. Not being enough, negative thinking, self-hatred makes me not care, I don’t care so long as it isn’t true. I love to lie especially to myself. It is like cheating with someone that someone is my ego. It wants to screw me and I want to screw with it.

Other people are also a nuisance.

My ego is on the rampage looking to destroy me. It will use what I think other people are thinking of me as a weapon. If I call you and do not return my call or you are just too busy for me then I will think what I think you are thinking and use it against me.

The problem is I think what I think. It sucks.